Hey people!

I think I should write another journal entry. The last is so sad, I don't want to see it everytime, I'm looking at my page... And I'm too lazy to do anything else at the moment. :<

I'm still really sad and cry nearly everyday, cause I miss Falco so much and don't know how to go on without him. It's like my life just stopped with his death and I'm still running anyway, like a record that's over and is still spinning on the turntable.
I got a feeling of emptiness, that just won't leave. Like the last years were a wonderful dream and now I'm awake and there's nothing but this cruel world.
Life lost much of its sense with him. I don't know, if I'll ever get over it.

Sure, I'm going on and try to make the best that I can of my life.
I'm trying to get well again and hope, that I will be fully revored soon. My new doc is really good and my health is getting better and better. Ok, I got another optic neuritis, now on the right (I think both) eye(s) and I have a new center of inflammation in my brain, that probably causes this. But I hope my doc will carry it off again.
My new dog is funny, cute and I really like him...
But it's hard to lose the most import person in your life.
And there's nothing that really keeps me up, but doing my daily things.

Okay...that's enough. It's going to be such a sad journal entry again. ._.
I have nearly finished my entry für 's Twilight Contest. I don't think, that I really have a chance to win something. I have to rush at the rest of the drawing and I don't see that good, because of the optic neuritis. -.- I'm doing my best. I will work on it, til it's tolerably ok. When (I hope) I can see right again, I will finish it and do some "finetuning", so that I can finish it right.

When I've done this, I have to start with a commission immediately. I was asked to draw a baby. I never drew one... I hope I will get it good. A baby don't has so much details on its face, that's good for my stupid eyes. oO
After that I will probably have 1-2 more commissions and then I will finally finish Henrik, I think! After him, I will draw another one of my "models".

Wish you all a nice and sunny day!

FrEsHy
x.o.x.o.

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